Day 521 - Two many roads not enough time..

This will be a quick one tonight.. mostly because I'm tired, working still, exhausted from my workout and my dog whose leg is broke (this is a great story for another day) is going crazy.. Its funny what happens to animals (like people) when they are restricted from movement, exercise and being outside. They turn CRAZY! like moody, fat, lazy with the odd random burst of energy and then the barking.. this dog never used to bark.. now she is like a person with turetts (not trying to be offensive here) she randomly barks out obscenities at me then twirls around twitching.. my dog has gone wacko. I cannot wait for 2 more weeks when i can let her roam free and get this energy out. poor thing.



ok, my quickie is suddenly turning into a long drawn out, monotonous love making session. You know the one, your tired, you aren't even in the mood, but they insist it will be a fun 'quickie". There is nothing fun about thinking your going to have a quick, passionate love session when it never ends, and you find yourself actually looking around for a clock our counting all the moments of sleep your missing or things you need to do... haha wow.. yes, i said it. A quickie is suppose to be QUICK and GOOD or don't bother. I don't like having expectations that are not met.. obviously.

So,
Back to the purpose of this not so quickie message. Its AMAZING to me how when you open yourself up to the things around you, our the things within you mostly how you make decisions that support your overall goals. Today i went to the dentist (checked out ok, minus a tiny cavity.. darn acidic foods). I decided to work only half a day and being in my most favourite place i have lived (Cochrane) i thought i would take the opportunity to stop in at my favourite coffee shop (java jamboree) i will note here : this is the BEST cafe i have had in the WORLD. They have the most amazing roasted beans.. in love). Ok , so to go to this coffee shop is a total experience that must include a good read. So i stopped in at the used bookstore next to the shop.

Wandering around aimlessly, i decided to go to my most trusted author when looking for spiritual awakening or just an overall thought provoking book. Paulo Coelho is a literary genius in my mind with his use of words and his ability to make one statement provoke profound change from within. Having read almost all of his books i was amazed to find one i had not heard of "By the river Piedra, I sat down & wept". 5 pages into this book i was so moved i had to re read the pages again. It so totally matched how my life is changing right now and where it is projecting too. Then i hit page 25 and the world gave me a big WHAT UP! See picture below. Amazing! Whoever T is, i am so very thankful for her kind words and ability to touch me the second i needed it, in the way i needed it (if only men in the world could take note haha)

I also would like to insert here the most moving part of this book so far. Thought Provoking and wonderful.


" You have to take risks , he said. We will only understand the miracle of life fully when we allow the unexpected to happen. 

Every day, god gives us the sun -  and also one moment in which we have the ability to change everything that makes us unhappy. Every day, we try to pretend that we haven't perceived that moment, that it doesn't exist - that today is the same as yesterday and will be the same as tomorrow. But if people really pay attention to there everyday lives, they will discover the magic moment. 

It may arrive in the instant when we are doing something mundane, like putting our front door key in the lock  ; it may lie hidden in the quiet that follows the lunch hour or in the thousand and one things that all seem the same to us. But the moment exists -  a moment when all the power of the stars become a part of us and enables us to perform miracles. 

Joy is sometimes a blessing, but it is often a conquest. Our magic moment helps us to change and sends us off in search of our dreams. Yes, we are going to suffer, we will have difficult times, and we will experience many disappointments. -  but all of this is transitory ;  it leaves no permanent mark. And one day we will look back with pride and faith at the journeys e have taken. 

Pitiful is the person who is afraid of taking risks. Perhaps this person will never be disappointed or disillusioned ; perhaps she won't suffer the way people do when they have a dream to follow. But when that person looks back - and at some point EVERYONE looks back - she will hear her heart saying, "what have you done with the miracles that God planted in your days? what have you done with the talents God bestowed on you? You buried yourself in a cave because you were fearful of losing those talents. So this is your heritage, the certainty that you wasted your life" 

Pitiful are the people who must realize this. Because when they are finally able to believe in miracles, their lives magic moments will have already passed them by."


This prompted the writing of my own poem today based on my favourite Robert Frost :

 I was standing at two roads diverged in would, a lonely traveller long I stood, and chalk it up to youth and chance, but I took one based on circumstance, the road I took was paved away, mostly trodden by present day and here I stand miles apart from the less travelled road where I left my heart..

Until next time...

Jenny